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Miracle Speech Finals Remix. *first cut*

Great moments are born from great opportunity. 
And that's what you have here tonight, boys. 
That's what you've earned here tonight. 
One final. 
If we took em ten times, we might fail nine. 
But not this semester. 
Not tonight. 
Tonight, we grind for them.
Tonight, we finesse on them. And we shut them down because we can! 
Tonight, WE are the smartest people in the world. 
You were born to ace these finals. 
Every one of you.
And you were meant to be here tonight. 
This is your time. 
Their time is done. It's over. I'm sick and tired of hearing about what hard finals professors made. Screw 'em. 
This your time. 
Now go out there and take it.

Ambiance

If there is one thing I can handle it's ambiance. Given my lovely part time student schedule and the need to go out a tad too often... I have devised the prime ways to actually sleep:

1. Eye mask. Don't knock it till you try it- Herbal Concepts is my favorite by far.

2. Some sort of dope pillow but not actually temperpedic (spelling is not something I can handle) because we are poor

3. Candles. Candles. Candles.

4. Simplicity in your room. UOENO how huge this was for me. My huge takeaway from the minimalist documentary was that we should only have things in our home that add value.

^think that can also be applied to people.

5. I'm a huge night storm kinda gal, but hey to each his own.

6. Invest in a sunlight clock (cheap off of amazon) it starts to slowly brighten a half hour before you want to wake up so by the time your alarm goes off you actually are ready to get up.

7. Comfy pajamas

8. My doughnut pillow and ugly doll make my day every day, but that's not for every…

previously was locked out of this account

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VERY VERY annoying. I guess I have to use Chrome to sign in? No idea but heyyyyyyy here I am.

Major Updates:

I am a mother!! Single mom!!!! Of a puppy lol. She's incredible. I knew going into this a lot of people including myself thought I wouldn't be ready for the responsibility. The craziest part is that I will realistically have Eloise until I'm in my 30's. I can only imagine where I'll be by then but it's crazy to think that this is someone I am responsible for. She's made me actually WANT to wake up early. Be productive. Actually stick to a schedule?!?!?!?!?!? She litterally was two pounds and I'm already tweaking about when she gets bigger (which will be four pounds) but like. still. she's just so cute.

This is exactly how I feel about Eloise:
LIKE SHE'S SO GREAT. Even though we haven't perfected the whole actually peeing on her pee pad outside. We are en route to it.

I'm just waiting for when they come out with puppy crocs so we c…

naw ya got me

I know how it feels when you think no one pays attention to you. When you feel like no one seems to care about your opinion or that you're even there. Know that I notice, That they notice. That you have amazing insight to bring up. That its that shitty little voice trying to drag you down that makes us all feel like we are not enough.

The entire atmosphere would be nothing without you. You are such an integral part it's almost in-conceptual for everyone to consider.

In order to realize your worth you must be able to tell that tiny voice  to shut the fuck up. To be quiet. To know, that That voice does NOT own you.

I struggle with this concept a lot. I've realized how much easier it is for me to say No then Yes. To give up rather than keep going. The fact of the matter is that we ARE going to kick ass. You just have to continue to tell yourself that.

This quote really stuck with me "Success is walking from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm" from Winston…

WEIRD

It's made my heart very happy to know that I'm not the only one who thinks this year has been weird.... I don't know if it's the weather, the classes, going out, or the fact that bars have been so weird. But everything seems off. It feels like I don't know anything that's going on in my classes even though I am actually going to them. Going out has gotten lame because it's the same thing every single night, but I still feel weird not going out. And it feels like I'm not seeing anyone.

I don't know what's happened but I think it's so odd that so many people feel this way... I really don't get what's happening but I feel better that I'm not alone. I'm not going out though so shouldn't I already be ahead in my classes... like I'm not hungover THAT'S HUGE??? But idk. Shits been off. Way off.

Weird. Weird. Weird.

I think we need to hire a detective because I'm super confused.

Champaign I miss you.

Come back.

Sincer…

Still here dontcha worry

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I haven't posted in a while because I really haven't known what to say. This semester has been really weird... it doesn't feel like I'm back on campus it's like a weird in-between. I feel like that's how junior starts for most *or I'm assuming/ hoping I'm not alone in that* classes are harder and it's weird how disconnected I feel with everyone.

I feel surprisingly relaxed this morning and I'm super pumped because I woke up at 8, showered, and EVEN made myself eggs. I also DID THE DISHES. Accomplishing the little things has really helped me to feel organized and like my shit is semi together.

Currently lying in bed because I don't have class until 11... I feel guilty for not practicing my script right now but my game plan is to go ham between classes.

I'm elated to be in a play... I really want to do an incredible job and know all my lines inside out. I'm really looking forward to the play. When I found out I actually got a lead role…